Nearing The End

Mom is tired.
She told me tonight that she is ready for Hospice.
She says that she will probably see Michelle first, then her mother, then Bev.

I can’t imagine a world without her in it, but she is ready to go.
I promised her that I would be strong.
Being strong means letting her go.

Please, God, give me strength.

About Teresa in Fort Worth, TX

A short, fat, over-the-hill, happily-married mother of 4 daughters. I know just enough to get myself in trouble....
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3 Responses to Nearing The End

  1. Rick says:

    I am close behind. I am full time caring for mother. A couple of weeks ago she said she’s tired, doesn’t cherish the thought of living another 10 years. She’s mostly lucid and usually able to get around on her own. She’s busy finishing the quilt for me that she started decades ago. (In between she had turned her attention to quilts for many others.) So I’m watching her make what could be her last quilt as another of her gifts to me. Damn, it’s tough. I get choked up sometimes as I think of a life time of memories with this beautiful woman.

    I’ve promised myself that I as much as I am able I will not let her go to a facility. We pray for strength, God gives us a deeper compassion. I try to prepare myself but some mornings I am besot with grief that she didn’t wake until a late hour. Remember, God’s grace is sufficient.

    Too, remember this time with her. Over these last few years, I have come to know my mother in a way her child would not but as a friend.

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    • What a wonderful testament to your love for your mother. You and your family will be in our prayers.

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      • Rick says:

        Thank you so much. The power of prayer is real and cannot be denied. I do feel richly blessed to be here. Though sometimes I think of the live I would have, dreams on hold. But what is it when we say, ‘wait on God;? If truly to live for Him, then we should lift our eyes off ourselves and seek Him first, to come to know His ways, His thoughts. God did command, rejoice endlessly, and to bear one another in love. While that doesn’t necessarily demand that we turn from the life we’d rather have, it is this way for it has to be this way.

        I normally do not tell others that I pray for them for it sounds like boasting. Alright, it may sound silly but that is my opinion. Anyway, you have been and are in my prayers. It is comforting to know one is not in it alone, that there are others likewise. Not that they too should be troubled but to encourage one another. In this, knowing another has true empathy and that their prayers are sincere, not fleeting, we find comfort.

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