Mom is tired.
She told me tonight that she is ready for Hospice.
She says that she will probably see Michelle first, then her mother, then Bev.
I can’t imagine a world without her in it, but she is ready to go.
I promised her that I would be strong.
Being strong means letting her go.
Please, God, give me strength.
“What all the wise men promised has not happened, and what all the damned fools said would happen has come to pass.” – Lord Melbourne
“We voted for these people. We should be allowed to taser them.” – Mike
“You guys just don’t spend enough time giving yourself cool but limited super-powers. This is the internet.” – laura w.
“Those who expect to reap the blessings of freedom must, like men, undergo the fatigue of supporting it.” – Thomas Paine
“Whoever undertakes to set himself up as judge in the field of truth and knowledge is shipwrecked by the laughter of the gods” – Albert Einstein
“All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing.” – Edmund Burke
“The essential American soul is hard, isolate, stoic, and a killer. It has never yet melted.” – D.H. Lawrence
“If there must be trouble, let it be in my day, that my child may have peace.” – Thomas Paine
“God doesn’t call the equipped – he equips those he calls.” – Barbara Curtis
“Hand-written notes in cursive writing are still the finest personal way of saying thank you. The people who send those after interviews are the ones who get the jobs.”
The Fat Lady Has Sung
“Luddites and anti-intellectuals do not master the differential equations of thermodynamics or the biochemical cures of illness. They stay in thatched huts and die young.” – Edward O. Wilson
Fathom the hypocrisy of a Government that requires every citizen to prove they are insured…but not everyone must prove they are a citizen.
“When men have suffered their imaginations to be long affected with any idea, it so wholly engrosses them as to shut out by degrees almost every other, and to break down every partition of the mind which would confine it.” – Edmund Burke.
“Michael Moore simultaneously represents everything I detest in a human being and everything I feel obligated to defend in an American. Quite simply, it is that stupid moron’s right to be that utterly and completely wrong.” – Dennis Miller
When Lawbreakers are in charge of the Law, we no longer have a Republic.
“It will be a great day when taxpayers keep the money they earned and DC has to hold a bake sale to to raise the debt limit.” – David Burge (aka “iowahawk”)
Funny. They complain about racism while demanding it.
“The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.”
“A great deal of intelligence can be invested in ignorance when the need for illusion is deep.” – Saul Bellow
“Pray do not imagine that those who make the noise are the only inhabitants of the field; that of course they are many in number; or that, after all, they are anything other than the little shriveled, meagre, hopping (though loud and troublesome) insects of the hour” – Edmund Burke
“It is not ours to restore the power of the Constitution. It is ours to show them the wrath of America without the protections the Constitution offers them. Let them restore it to find refuge from us.” – TL Davis
I am close behind. I am full time caring for mother. A couple of weeks ago she said she’s tired, doesn’t cherish the thought of living another 10 years. She’s mostly lucid and usually able to get around on her own. She’s busy finishing the quilt for me that she started decades ago. (In between she had turned her attention to quilts for many others.) So I’m watching her make what could be her last quilt as another of her gifts to me. Damn, it’s tough. I get choked up sometimes as I think of a life time of memories with this beautiful woman.
I’ve promised myself that I as much as I am able I will not let her go to a facility. We pray for strength, God gives us a deeper compassion. I try to prepare myself but some mornings I am besot with grief that she didn’t wake until a late hour. Remember, God’s grace is sufficient.
Too, remember this time with her. Over these last few years, I have come to know my mother in a way her child would not but as a friend.
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What a wonderful testament to your love for your mother. You and your family will be in our prayers.
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Thank you so much. The power of prayer is real and cannot be denied. I do feel richly blessed to be here. Though sometimes I think of the live I would have, dreams on hold. But what is it when we say, ‘wait on God;? If truly to live for Him, then we should lift our eyes off ourselves and seek Him first, to come to know His ways, His thoughts. God did command, rejoice endlessly, and to bear one another in love. While that doesn’t necessarily demand that we turn from the life we’d rather have, it is this way for it has to be this way.
I normally do not tell others that I pray for them for it sounds like boasting. Alright, it may sound silly but that is my opinion. Anyway, you have been and are in my prayers. It is comforting to know one is not in it alone, that there are others likewise. Not that they too should be troubled but to encourage one another. In this, knowing another has true empathy and that their prayers are sincere, not fleeting, we find comfort.
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