Mom is tired.
She told me tonight that she is ready for Hospice.
She says that she will probably see Michelle first, then her mother, then Bev.
I can’t imagine a world without her in it, but she is ready to go.
I promised her that I would be strong.
Being strong means letting her go.
Please, God, give me strength.
“What all the wise men promised has not happened, and what all the damned fools said would happen has come to pass.” – Lord Melbourne
“We voted for these people. We should be allowed to taser them.” – Mike
“You guys just don’t spend enough time giving yourself cool but limited super-powers. This is the internet.” – laura w.
“Those who expect to reap the blessings of freedom must, like men, undergo the fatigue of supporting it.” – Thomas Paine
“Whoever undertakes to set himself up as judge in the field of truth and knowledge is shipwrecked by the laughter of the gods” – Albert Einstein
“All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing.” – Edmund Burke
“The essential American soul is hard, isolate, stoic, and a killer. It has never yet melted.” – D.H. Lawrence
“If there must be trouble, let it be in my day, that my child may have peace.” – Thomas Paine
“God doesn’t call the equipped – he equips those he calls.” – Barbara Curtis
Always remember: Law is about arguing one fact that helps your argument and ignoring the ten facts that disprove it.
“Hand-written notes in cursive writing are still the finest personal way of saying thank you. The people who send those after interviews are the ones who get the jobs.”
The Fat Lady Has Sung
“Luddites and anti-intellectuals do not master the differential equations of thermodynamics or the biochemical cures of illness. They stay in thatched huts and die young.” – Edward O. Wilson
“There is no crueler tyranny than that which is perpetrated under the shield of law and in the name of justice” – Charles-Louis de Secondat, Baron de Montesquieu, 1742
Fathom the hypocrisy of a Government that requires every citizen to prove they are insured…but not everyone must prove they are a citizen.
“Activism is a way for useless people to feel important, even if the consequences of their activism are counterproductive for those they claim to be helping and damaging to the fabric of society as a whole.” – Thomas Sowell
“Michael Moore simultaneously represents everything I detest in a human being and everything I feel obligated to defend in an American. Quite simply, it is that stupid moron’s right to be that utterly and completely wrong.” – Dennis Miller
When Lawbreakers are in charge of the Law, we no longer have a Republic.
Funny. They complain about racism while demanding it.
“The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.”
“A great deal of intelligence can be invested in ignorance when the need for illusion is deep.” – Saul Bellow
“To fight and conquer in all our battles is not supreme excellence; supreme excellence consists in breaking the enemy’s resistance without fighting.” – Sun Tzu
“It is not ours to restore the power of the Constitution. It is ours to show them the wrath of America without the protections the Constitution offers them. Let them restore it to find refuge from us.” – TL Davis
I am close behind. I am full time caring for mother. A couple of weeks ago she said she’s tired, doesn’t cherish the thought of living another 10 years. She’s mostly lucid and usually able to get around on her own. She’s busy finishing the quilt for me that she started decades ago. (In between she had turned her attention to quilts for many others.) So I’m watching her make what could be her last quilt as another of her gifts to me. Damn, it’s tough. I get choked up sometimes as I think of a life time of memories with this beautiful woman.
I’ve promised myself that I as much as I am able I will not let her go to a facility. We pray for strength, God gives us a deeper compassion. I try to prepare myself but some mornings I am besot with grief that she didn’t wake until a late hour. Remember, God’s grace is sufficient.
Too, remember this time with her. Over these last few years, I have come to know my mother in a way her child would not but as a friend.
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What a wonderful testament to your love for your mother. You and your family will be in our prayers.
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Thank you so much. The power of prayer is real and cannot be denied. I do feel richly blessed to be here. Though sometimes I think of the live I would have, dreams on hold. But what is it when we say, ‘wait on God;? If truly to live for Him, then we should lift our eyes off ourselves and seek Him first, to come to know His ways, His thoughts. God did command, rejoice endlessly, and to bear one another in love. While that doesn’t necessarily demand that we turn from the life we’d rather have, it is this way for it has to be this way.
I normally do not tell others that I pray for them for it sounds like boasting. Alright, it may sound silly but that is my opinion. Anyway, you have been and are in my prayers. It is comforting to know one is not in it alone, that there are others likewise. Not that they too should be troubled but to encourage one another. In this, knowing another has true empathy and that their prayers are sincere, not fleeting, we find comfort.
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